![]() ![]() ![]() If they still want to continue with their stupid-freakin'-reckless live, carry on. It doesn't mean that I'm giving up on them, NO! Never! But, only they could change themselves. It is totally crazy+nonsense! So now, if they don't want to listen, or follow and do as I say, well, I do feel really upset, but it's their decision. I know, they are dying, and I know, they really want to be with 'it', but they can't act like that put their own live in danger, just want to show that they really want 'it'. I really do understand, that they're so desperate for 'it'. I gave everything that I could give-help, advice, time, everything. It doesn't mean that I hate them so much, or I just should let them be but I did help them. Can't they just accept that sometimes, they had to let go something that they really love in order to continue life? Hurm. Sometimes, I really don't understand, why does people will do something so reckless in order to get what they wants. Got so many problems I had to cope with until now. Well, my emotions is TOTALLY,SUPREMELY DOWN lately. And at least, I did give my self time to think about how to solve the problems. P/s: at least at the kampung, I felt so calm and unstressed because of the environment and the cool air. Why? Well, I know that I did what I have to do. After all this time, I help them, listen to them, give them courage and advices, but this is what they returned to me: Hatred, and maybe jealousy. If they really love me like what they have said before, they wont do or say such words to me. Kenapa la diorang sanggup say those nasty words to me, just like they wont respect me anymore. My, only god knows how I felt on those days. I did having fights in messages with the people that I really loved once back in KL (but not my girlfriend and my family, thank you very much, huhu.). The second reason was that I want to clear up my mind that was full with problems. I felt really sad, but at least, I got my aunts, uncles, my grandma and my cousins to cheer me up. I could barely having chit-chat with mak. I just missed her very much, but he always in the line, blocking me to be with my mak. So, I think that he's sorta jealous of me because of I-don't-know-why. ![]() You know, because I am Jamal's 'son' a.k.a my mak's ex. Actually, I don't really like him cos' he's sorta doesn't like me. Wow! REALLY HAPPY HERE! However, even though I got a lot of things to talked about with my mak, her husband a.k.a my 'stepfather' was always with her. My 'aunts' 'uncles' and my 'cousins' were also there. She was really happy that finally I went back. Memang happy sangat perasaan nie bile I've met my grandma. It's been awhile, actually, since I went back last year. Well, the first reason is that I really missed my mak angkat and my 'family' there. Last four days, I went back to my kampung in Kuala Pilah, Negeri Sembilan, alone. ![]()
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